Saturday, December 30, 2023

The Ferryman


 

1.

Sandy Valley. A small village at the foothills of a large mountain line in Southeast Asia. It would be a very beautiful place for a romanticized traveler, thanks to its serenity, calmness and the wild lovely flowers all around the windy walkways in the remotest setting off the illusive city life. The festive mood of nature continues from the end of the prolonged winter to the spring with the blooming colors in a jubilant mood. And it is the time when the hardships begin for the poor bread earners still clinging on to the place they were born and brought up in. This is the only place on earth they have ever known of from the stories of their ancestors, from the struggles they take on, from the happy moments they share together, from their hardships and sweats, from the indispensable bond they are tied to nature, from every single breath to taste the life. But the limited living resources could allow only a few hundreds of people to cling on to living with the minimal modern facilities a man would ever expect in the beginning of the 19th century.

 

The ferryman was waiting to kick off his first ride in the dawn. The eastern sky had hardly started lighting the earth with the first rays of the Sun. The river named Sandy was looking a little more rougher today with the incessant sound of flowing waters and breaking waves in a clash with the wind and currents. The passengers grew more worried but the rider looked nonchalant. He knows the turns, depth and the current of the river almost like his own palm. And for the countless number of times he has saved people, mostly kids and women, falling in the water from boats and trapped in the powerful currents. He could swim like a dolphin above the water or under it; amidst the deep current or in the crashing waves. But Madhu was worried too behind his apathetic look for entirely a different reason. The water level of Sandy River this year wasn’t increasing like it normally does during this part of the season. He knows the rhythm and the cycle of the water better than anyone else and anything else around him. He has witnessed the slow changes of its course, forcing people living near the bank to relocate. He has witnessed the river in its devastating mood, flooding the entire village which would eventually help the lands to grow more fertile and the landlords to reserve water for irrigation. But, there must be something wrong with the river this year. The clouds are not staying longer and the monsoon rains are not lasting longer either.

 

2.

The ferryman is known to all as Madhu, a shortened one from Madhushanka, without any middle or surname. He could hardly remember the time since when he started ferrying people to cross the river as the helper to his mentor and guardian who once provided shelter to a drifting kid and eventually started treating him like his own son. With his mentor, who he called papa, having passed away, he shouldered the responsibility of both the boat and the river which becomes nearly non-existent during the dry season with little or no water at all. But the scenario gets changed dramatically at the beginning of the long awaited monsoon. The darkening clouds engulfing the entire village and the chimes of sad gloomy sky bring back hopes and dreams to the villagers. The small river with the minimal flow suddenly becomes wild, windy and wavy and impassable without the expertise of a highly skilled rider like that of Madhu. And it’s the season when the rider becomes busy all through the day and night. And this is the season the villagers become busy with their own livelihoods: the farmers, the day-laborers, the fisherman and a couple of masons and carpenters all come out together off their naturally enforced long vacation. This is the season when the villagers start ploughing their fertile lands whose fertility entirely depends on the rains and the sediments distributed by the overflowing river.

 

Madhu worships the Sandy River as the only goddess he feels deep down his heart. The river was the closest companion in his troubled childhood days. The river is now the only means of his livelihood and he just can’t imagine of any other way to earn. When the river gets dried and the reasons to cross the knee deep water level get even more drier, he still keeps coming to his small boat tied to a tall tree on the bank. He spends hours watching people crossing the river on foot or the fishermen trying hard to catch fishes in the near dead flow of water.

 

In all these years Madhu has garnered the trust of the villagers who depend on each other for their respective livelihoods. People need to cross the river to get to the huge hut on the other side of the river, near the age-old railway station with only one train still keeping the locality alive to the other part of the world. But, the fresh vegetables, milk, butter, honey and other crops are the other things that make traders commute to this hut. And sometimes the vendors themselves cross the river for gaining the better margin, risking a little of their lives on the river; banking a huge trust onto the ferryman.  

 

The entire economic activities of Sandy Valley center around a few landlords of the village. While amassing their wealth with every passing year, they create the maximum job resources for the day laborers and other people in general and they have got their own houseboats, locally known as bojras, to make their precious lives more secured on the wild river. They often cross the river to catch up with the train to meet their relatives in the town. Life gives them the luxury to live a dual life: one in the village with the countrymen and with the hardships attuning to nature and the other is somehow like a vacation home in the town to spend the dry season.  They have got their kids educated in the town though, who, just like the opposite, spend their study breaks in the village. And ironical enough, Madhu’s little luxury depends on those kids and their pleasure trips on the river. When someone among them accidentally fall off their houseboats, and which happens regularly, Madhu instantaneously jumps off his boat and save them from being drowned in the helical flow or rip currents. And in such cases the tips from the landlords are always good.

 

3.

Apart from the river, the only other entity Madhu ever cares for is his wife, Banalota, whom he lovingly calls Buno. The affluent villagers or the traders making good profits would often give him good tips. And on such a day he would always think of two things: buying some jewelry like ear rings, nose pins or whatever fancy items were available in the hut near the station and drinking a whole bottle of a locally brewed cheap ram before getting back home. Other than riding the boat and swimming in the river, his entire life was dependent on his wife, be it the financial affairs, managing fresh vegetables or other everyday essentials like storing crops for the dry season. She never scolds him for being so late or for his occasional drinking habit but for being so bold to brave the wildness of the fuming river and so reckless to dive deep into the current so as to save the drowning people. But he is always ready with his smile and his answer: the river is his mother and a mother can’t kill his own child. She keeps waiting without having dinner for his husband to come home and it also hurts her to serve the food cold. Madhu never minds having a cold meal, though. Furthermore, he loves the way his beloved wife scolds him. He thinks himself a really lucky person to have such a beautiful, lovely and caring wife, who had to give up her gypsy life and her River Gypsy family to settle down with Madhu.

 

As Madhu was afraid of, the river was behaving differently this season. Instead of overflowing the banks, the water level started decreasing. The monsoon had somehow got derailed without triggering sufficient rain everyone was waiting for. And a village entirely dependent on one crop season after the monsoon rain finds it really hard to believe. They can’t remember such an instance to have ever happened to a place under the lap of nature with all its blessings for the people who never demanded too much from life.


The prolonged dry season after just a short break resumed. The villagers, most of them belonging to the working class, found it hard to cope up without jobs in the farming lands. The helps from the landlords began to drain out. The bond among the villagers began to fall apart. The common woes appeared to hit the clans in different ways. And the age old stories of famine started to cause panic among the people. With the small savings dried out and without the options left to seek help, the families began to flee in the darkness into an abyss of uncertainty, leaving behind their moments of joy, sorrows, hopes and beliefs and probably their souls deeply attached to the place. The melancholic tune started dominating the entire community with the increasing emptiness in the literal sense with the increasing number of abandoned homes every single morning.

 

4.

Days kept passing by without bringing any change to the fate of the people. The number of people had been reduced to half now.

 

Madhu never thought of leaving the river, and the small home close to its bank. But his wife, Buno, finally somehow managed to persuade him to leave their loving home and try their luck somewhere else like the other villagers. The stock of flattened rice and puffed rice has been reduced to the bottom layer even after extreme rationing. The stock of rice is nearly finished too. They took their minimal belongings and the rest of the dried food in a small bag with the diminishing hope of coming back home again. But the current priority is to manage somehow some job to be able to buy at least a square meal a day anywhere far or farther.

 

They left home in a shattered mind and in silence with tears rolling down their faces. In all these years they have lived so far, they never set themselves apart from their motherly river. Nor could they do it now. Instead of crossing the river to catch up with the trail to the town, they kept walking along the river with the hope of a better locality somewhere down there. 

 

Their village is naturally bordered by the small hills on two sides and a jungle on the West and the other one being covered by the river line. They choose the Western way where the river line meets the long forest. They kept passing through the muddy ways along the river bank like flowing on in an infinite silence without any trace of locality. The hilly tracks full of small bushes on the infertile soils keep acres of land uninhabited by the people solely dependent on agriculture. There are a few families who would go deep into the forest to collect honey in groups, but that was seasonal too. And they too never live anywhere near the forest line, though no species of ferocious animals was heard to be seen in the woods full of sal trees.


Their progress towards the uncertain destination was getting slower with every passing hour in nearly unfed stomachs. There was the source of water all along the way as the river was still flowing like a rivulet. But the dry foods can hardly provide the energy to walk through the untrodden ways full of downward slopes and small hills. Green coconuts or ripen guavas or sometimes bananas from the naturally grown trees helped them a lot on their painstaking journey. But these sorts of natural sources were getting lighter too as they were getting closer to the forest line.

 

After two days of laborious journey on foot with little rest and diminishing hope, Madhu was lying prostrate under a tree, looking at nowhere in a blank pair of eyes, thinking how his beautiful world was shattering into pieces. The logic wanted him to change the course and cross the river to get somewhere near the town like many other migrants. It was just before twilight when his eyes suddenly fell onto a long line of ants desperately moving in a row.  And his eyes got wet with the glow of a suddenly rekindled hope. Living all these years near water, studying nature, the movement of airs, the humidity and the heat of the Sun, the movement of the birds and clouds and the sky all through his life from childhood, he knows it’s the time. He immediately sprang up and asked his wife to get ready for the journey back home. Though a little confused at first, Buno didn’t argue with his husband as she knew very well what his husband was made of. If he thinks that the rain is coming back, it will definitely come in full vigor. Within hours there were chimes all along the sky with shrouding heavy clouds all above them. And then the downpour begins. 

 

5.

It took them less than a day to get back home amidst incessant rain. The river was already swelling up with wild roars while flowing like thousands of wild horses in a race. It was just the afternoon with the shadow of the night all set to sweep over the gloomy sky. Without taking any rest and wasting any time, Madhu left home to do a little repairing job of the boat, promising the worried Buno to return home in just an hour. The entire atmosphere of the village seemed to have changed in just three days. The torrential rain along with the lightning, the frightening and howling sound of the wind like that of a nor’wester, and the dangerous and all-engulfing look of the river were ringing the bell to declare an upcoming disaster. Madhu’s home was the nearest one from the river which was already flowing above the bank with millions of tons of water joining in.


Madhu was nearly running to get back home, sensing the flash flood. But the water level rising above his knee in just minutes forced him to swim back home for half a mile. He was so concerned about his wife alone in the home due to the screams of people from the neighboring homes. Many other people like them seemed to have come back home but may be just to face the far graver danger. They were searching for their dear ones yet to get back home. By the time Madhu reached home, the water level had reached almost waist high and Buno was standing on their bed which had gone under water. Both of them felt really relieved to see each other safe. But just for a moment. Suddenly a scream of a woman asking for help for her drowning child made Madhu take a reflex action like he used to do for drowning people in the river. He swam towards the sound like a sailfish while scanning the water covered area in the dwindling light from the sinking Sun. And the kid was lucky this time. Madhu brought him back to the tearful mother and swam back home at the same speed. Swimming can hardly make him tired.

 

The water level was still rising without giving any hint to go down soon. So Madhu decided to leave home yet again for the second time in three days. He took Buno on his back and asked her to hold him tight. He was planning to cross the drowned area to take shelter on the hilly parts of the village, nearly one kilometer off his home. But it was quite difficult to swim towards the right direction. In the already darkened afternoon the water logged land was hard to differentiate from the actual river. But Madhu is a water guy with full sense of the depth and current and obviously the courage. Swimming for hours has never been a problem for him. Even while carrying someone on his back. He was smoothly moving towards the light from the houses of the landlords. They live on the upper side of the village.

 

But there is one thing like helical flow in the calm looking surface and Madhu somehow fell into one in darkness and suddenly felt an enormous power pulling him deep down the water. He felt like something was fastening him tightly to a rope, draining out all his energy. He was pulled back into the main flow of the river and into a rip current which was still tying him tightly to keep him into the spiraling flow down the surface. And suddenly with the oxygen level going down to zero his lung was striving hard for the open air; his back felt so heavy. Buno was holding her throats more strongly under the water and he immediately started struggling to free himself from the weighing burden falling heavier every single second. Fresh air was all he was looking for. With a last attempt to breathe he put together all his energy and squeezed the throat of the burden real hard. In a few seconds the burden loosened and he set himself free from the current to float above the surface.

 

He was getting back to his senses with a few long breaths in the open air. Amidst darkness, and water and the waves he started feeling life once again after the near-death experience for the first in his life and still it was in the water where he feels the most comfortable. But with more oxygen flowing in his veins and the brain, he started feeling one more thing; a salty taste of tears rolling down his eyes. He started realizing what he had done. Without thinking anything else and with a prolonged sigh of disbelief and a blurred out groan, he finally surrendered himself to his river mother and to the flow of the deep current and started searching desperately for something he always thought more valuable to him than his own life. Under the dark deep water he was losing the last light of his conscience with the last ray of hope getting dimmer. The last thing he could remember was the feel of a cloth in his quivering fingers of the right hand.

 

Hours went by and the all engulfing darkness was getting weakened with a soft light emerging on the eastern sky. The flash flood was gone along with the howling winds and the roaring waves. The river was calm and so was the weather. And so were two bodies on the boat of Madhu: still breathing.


(The story is written in the shadow of Bengali short story entitled “Tarinee Majhi”, by prominent Bengali novelist Tarasankar Bandyopadhyay.)

 

©Atique R.



Dreaming...


 

By Claudia Wysocky


Days without end and, to be honest, nights too,

Honeyed with answers—I find my answers in you.

You have cradled me as you would every other

Pair taking solace in a sleepless bedroom—

Unable to rest or be found at rest outside you.

I lift my eyes to the night. You I will see.

And soon I will see you walking with me back home.

Because you have become my home; my only one.

Knowing my mind may be in turmoil—you hold me firm,

And me, accustom to conquer the world, or die—

"I am not going to let you die." –As I say it—

Your eyes find me. I can see you swallow.

We shall live. We shall live.

If we stay here for long, we shall both grow old,

Showing a wisdom in the face of all things—

...Tonight I saw, in the dark and all undone,

Your face. One moment you were not there,

One moment I believed I heard you cry,

And yet, it was in another place and time

You saw it too. And wondered,

"Was I lying?... Did I dream?"

The grass was golden; the horizon and the sky—

Unlatched, new, bare planets—or worlds.


About the Author:

Claudia Wysocky, a Polish poet based in New York, is known for her ability to capture the beauty of life through rich descriptions in her writing. She firmly believes that art has the potential to inspire positive change. With over five years of experience in fiction writing, Claudia has had her poems published in local newspapers and magazines. For her, writing is an endless journey and a powerful source of motivation.


At the Edge of Sleep


 

By Stephen Mead


Long white feather appears, laid on blackness

between velvet and silk, this slightly arched

horizontal quill, its edges having something bluing

with every barely separated tip.

What to make of this pearl sheen luminous in itself?

Is this the spirit weighed for heaviness or lightness?

Hover, drift-----

Fluff, post-blossom, now showers streets,

blowing scenery to flurry-squalls, but dry, soft,

achieving depth to cup up, scatter by lips kiss-

puckered with sparkling breath:

Poof, whoosh-----

Another summer is coming

and these signify next year's spring.

Weave them like cotton, terry cloth,

all the towels and smaller folds for washing

fresh from the laundry , that large hospital linen cart

of tiers like a mini apartment complex with shelves big enough

to stretch out on.

Pull out a gown, robe, blanket, so many fresh

with steam-heat still to comfort flesh in need,

flesh, sponge-absorbent, ooh-ing the ahs

of yes, yes.

Back in this bed a poem of thought only

is yet awake enough to feel memory is to be held,

given shape, before it goes churned under morning's fog

as an impression of touch longing to come back.

Souls born old find the means to retrieve this

or with acceptance let go, lifted deeper with age

as ingrown trees tell time with rings circling.

Wake us grateful with that knowledge

or send us blessed to have been and gone

just the same.


About the Author:

Stephen Mead is a retired Civil Servant, having worked two decades for three state agencies. Before that his more personally fulfilling career was fifteen years in healthcare. Throughout all these jobs he was able to find time for writing and creating art. More details about the poet can be found here

Another Opening


 

By Russ Bickerstaff


Somewhere in the midst of everything, there’s this door. It’s a totally normal door and everything. It's a simple door. Nothing out of the ordinary about it at all in any way. And it's been opened 1 million times. But this time there's something different about it. Something different about the way. It twists and swings. Maybe it has something to do with the fact that it's not actually on a wall anymore. It's been removed somehow. Not necessarily physically, but certainly existentially. The door has been existentially moved to somewhere el and it's not exactly where it was. It is not exactly where it needs to be. But it's been opened anyway. And there's something wrong with that. Because it doesn't feel right to anyone who happens to walk by.

 

And two people are walking by seeing this door that might be open it might be not, and it might be connected to a wall, and it might not. And they are just not exactly certain that they're actually saying anything at all. But it certainly seems as though they probably are. Because why would they be doing anything at all if they were noticing that door? It seems to be the center of everything. And certainly it seems to be the center of attention at this moment. But not for anyone in particular. So it's just there. Right where it needs to be.

 

And it's possible that somebody had opened it to go inside. But it's also possible that someone opened it to go on the other side of it. And that's possible too. But whatever it is, that is the case, the door is certainly open. And somebody had forgotten to close it. So I just sort of hung open. And it perhaps detached from the wall that it was a part of. And now whoever happened to walk through it probably didn't exactly remember having done so. Because a door like that doesn't necessarily get remembered. Once it gets detached from the wall, it'll get detached from memory as well. And whoever walk through, it might not necessarily remember where they were before they did so.

 

That person who walked through the door, has probably been forgotten by the door as well. Not the doors necessarily always remember the people who walk through them. They are, after all, doors. Most the doors don't have any kind of memory at all. At least none of that other people walking through them would have any knowledge of. And so it's a pretty good chance that this particular door had completely forgotten who it was, who walked through it to cause it to detach from the wall and people’s memories.

 

And show the door is just going to continue to float our lawn, completely untethered by any other form of architectural feature. It's just there with its handle to hanging ever so slightly open. The lads just sort of fumbling around in the open space. And it's all just kind of there. And most people would notice it but for the fact that it doesn't really fit into anybody's rental comprehension. And since everybody else is just a little too busy to take on the knowledge that a door is both there and not there, it doesn't really meet with anybody's full understanding.

 

And having been completely unmoored from the wall, it was a part of, the door begins to have a sort of consciousness. It has to sort of understand that it doesn't actually fit into anywhere. It may find itself turning to address the wall that it had once been a part of. And it may in some way recollect, the whole, to dilation that it used to have a purpose. But the door doesn't have a purpose anymore. It's just floating out there in open space not actually being acknowledged by anyone because it doesn't actually make sense for it to be there in the first place.

 

And maybe the door begins to drift by other doors, which clearly aren't detached. And then maybe it begins to understand something about itself. Maybe it begins to understand a certain kind of displacement. But it's looking at these other doors that aren't necessarily looking back at it. Because they don't have consciousness. And these other doors are simply they are being pushed open and pushed closed and things of that nature. And maybe the door begins to realize that it's not quite as it had been. And maybe it's not quite looking at what it is. No definite reflection at this stage. Just another possibility.

 

Having realized that it has an identity that the rest of its kind a like the sides that it's not a door at all. It might've been at one point. But it's not anymore. So it simply begins to drift. Matt realizes that in movement and motion it is less architecture and more identity. And as there are so many others walking by wearing identity, it decides to do so more openly as well. Before long it's not actually drifting so much as it is gambling. Walking. Like the rest of the people who wear identity. The door feels a little bit more comfortable. Finds itself shrugging a little bit more into a pair of shoulders.

 

The door continue to walk. But it wasn't really doing a very good job of it. It had to be close attention to others. The sun climbed into the sky muffled by clouds and the occasionally bit of precipitation. The door was halfway down the block before it realized that I had forgotten something. I didn't know what I had forgotten. I just looked back. Looked around. Made eye contact with a few people. And continued to move forward. Whatever it was that I had forgotten, I knew that it was going to remember eventually. It just had to figure out what it needed to do. And once it figured out what it needed to do, all would be well.



About the author:

Russ Bickerstaff is a critic and author living in Milwaukee, WI.


The Beauty of Things


 

                        By Jim Burns


When you’re sad

and the world bleeds blue

summon up

your youthful you.

Look around

with the eyes of that child,

take it all in,

the soft and the mild—

The sea at sunrise

the sea at sunset,

tranquil beauty

elsewhere unmet.

Moonlight sparkling

on new-fallen snow,

God looking down

on stars he did sow.

Droplets of dew

cling to a leaf,

nature’s artwork

however brief.

A newborn puppy

stretches and yawns,

kittens purr in a basket,

the new day dawns.

Spiderwebs after a rain

are studies in grace,

wondrously woven

works of fine lace.

Clouds float above you,

lambs they might be

or joyous spirits

only you can see.

And the smile of a lover,

ah, that smile

can light up your life

with its absence of guile—

Think of these things

when the world seems cold,

for all around you

lies beauty untold.

Drink it in with your eyes,

let it into your heart,

make the beauty be you,

your own work of art.



About the author:

Jim Burns was born and raised in rural Indiana, received degrees from Indiana State University (B.S., Social Studies; M.S.,History) and Indiana University (MLS, Library Science), and worked as a librarian for most of his professional life. After retirement in an effort to keep his mind active he began writing, which he had done a bit in the past, and has seen his work, both poetry and prose, in Pages Literary Journal, athinsliceofanxiety.com, eucalyptuslit.com, Skipjack Review, Cowboy Jamboree and others. He lives in Jacksonville, Florida with wife and dog, his most loyal fangirls.


Highway of Love


 

By John RC Potter


Black heap. Dark. Bleeding.

A prisoner of the car’s headlights.

I closed my eyes to shut out that image.

Forcing the memory to fade away into a blackout.

 

I saw a raccoon lying on the side of the road last night

on his back, freshly dead, his paws raised in supplication;

he reminded me of me:

but can the dead still be moved through manipulation?

 

Water drops. Opaque. Streaming.

Rivulets across the car’s windscreen.

I opened my eyes to be able to see clearer.

But the memories came back like a relentless waterfall.

 

Whenever I see raccoons lying dead on the road,

they remind me of all those who have loved and lost:

dead and dying hearts on this endless highway of love,

whose owners took a chance but at quite a high cost. 

 

Road hard. Inky. Winding.

The wheels of the car turning over endlessly.

I rubbed my eyes to clear the cobwebs.

Then forgetting to swerve to miss the roadkill.

 

I saw a raccoon dying on the side of the road last night

on his back, still alive, wondering what had happened to him;

he reminded me of me:

just a heap on the highway of love as the light grows dim. 

 


About the Author:

John RC Potter is an international educator from Canada, living in Istanbul. His poems, stories, essays, and reviews have been published in a range of magazines and journals, most recently in Blank Spaces, (“In Search of Alice Munro”, June 2023), Literary Yard (“She Got What She Deserved”, June 2023), Freedom Fiction (“The Mystery of the Dead-as-a-Doornail Author”, July 2023), and The Serulian (“The Memory Box”, September 2023). The author has over a dozen upcoming publications in the coming months, including an essay in The Montreal Review. His story, “Ruth’s World” (Fiction on the Web, March 2023) has recently been nominated for the prestigious Pushcart Prize. More details about the poet can be found here


It’s Been So Long…

 


It’s been long

I walked not barefoot

On the withered winter grass:

Dewy, unprized and fringed.

 

It’s been long

I didn’t catch up with a rain

Along the lonely esplanade:

Unmowed, wild and derailed.

 

It’s been long

I didn’t run unshackled,

Piercing through the feasting woods:

Wintered, unscathed and autumned.

 

It’s been long

I didn’t smell of a jasmine

Flowing in from a faraway spring:

Blistered and distained and abandoned.

 

It’s been long

I didn’t swim in a summer flute

From the edge of a monsoon fall:

Flooded, flustered and fledged.

 

It’s been a long, long time

I didn’t fly past the abandoned graveyard

Of hopes and dreams and despairs.

It’s been long

I didn’t plough the unfurrowed lands

Of passions, pains and desires.

 

It’s been such a long time

I didn’t see my body

Once I left in a Moon blanched night;

While watching the death of Death

And a look; so blank and blithe

On the trigger of an eternal flight.

 

© Atique R.